Five Factors Quiz- Hit the Nail On the Head

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

I Am Scared. Honestly.

I don't understand it. Why will Kevin not leave me alone? I told him I was dating Andy. He said okay. But he wants a LIFE WITH ME. Not Andy, Kevin. Check it out. This was after I talked to Leigha when he started freaking me out today and put "I love you" up on the Yahoo! messenger to me. YES, LEAH, "I LOVE YOU". Does he know me? No. A couple cds traded last year. Seeing each other in the hall once and awhile in tenth, eleventh, and twelth grade. Prom (ha! Don't think that an actual big thing to him and I). Leah, you know what I'm talking about. Everybody else, sorry, this is just a problem I'm having with an obsessed stalker.

HOWEVER, Leah, you haven't seen this. Just happened like two minutes ago. What did I do? *gasp* Stand up for myself against an obsessed man? Did I? Desperate times call for desperate measures. Check it out. Please read it all.:

Date: February 13th, 2007- 1:30 in the morning

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kevin tarbet: u still awake lisa?
kevin tarbet: u should get some sleep
Trinian Buttercrunch: Oh please. I have insomnia nearly every night. I'm not getting to bed for at least another half hour.
kevin tarbet: well my bad lisa
kevin tarbet: this is the latest i have seen u online im sorry
kevin tarbet: i was just worried about u if u couldnt get any sleep or not
Trinian Buttercrunch: no worries. i usually log off before twelve, though i'm usually still online after then
Trinian Buttercrunch: sorry if my first comment there sounded harsh. I wasn't trying to be sarcastic with you. Was kind of laughing at myself.
kevin tarbet: oh hehe its ok
kevin tarbet: so what do u do at a time like this?
Trinian Buttercrunch: read fanfictions. write. scan deviantart.
Trinian Buttercrunch: sometimes play WoW
kevin tarbet: oh i see well thats cooly
Trinian Buttercrunch: =) thanks
kevin tarbet: hehe yup yup =^-^=
kevin tarbet: i usualy stay up and watch anime and catch up on others
Trinian Buttercrunch: ^.^ yeah
Trinian Buttercrunch: have you seen trinity blood?
kevin tarbet: who hasnt
Trinian Buttercrunch: lol. =P
kevin tarbet: lol sorry
Trinian Buttercrunch: nah, true statement
kevin tarbet: hehe yeah i guess so
Trinian Buttercrunch: hold on asec, grabbing something
kevin tarbet: kk
kevin tarbet: hey u back yet?
Trinian Buttercrunch: yeah, got back about three minutes ago. spaced out staring at the screen
kevin tarbet: oh lol
kevin tarbet: well thats a sign to go to bed
kevin tarbet: u shouldnt push urself sweety
Trinian Buttercrunch: I know.... but... but... I'm halfway through reading a chapter. Baaaaah.
kevin tarbet: well ok then
kevin tarbet: u finish that then u go to be u hear?
kevin tarbet: i want u to get some sleep since ur so busy sweety
kevin tarbet: i care and worry about u
kevin tarbet:
kevin tarbet: so r u almost done sweety?
Trinian Buttercrunch: Here's my schedule for my own nightly abuse: 8:00 PM- have a chance to finish a quiz 9:00-11:00 PM- chance to finish quiz/refusal to START quiz 12:00 AM: given up on quiz, moved to fanfiction reading and writing 12:15 AM: addition of headphones for added music 12:20-2:50: WoW playing 3:00-4:27: DeviantArt and finished fanfiction reading
Trinian Buttercrunch: THAT is my usual schedule lately.
Trinian Buttercrunch: Though I've been good as of late and gotten to bed by two.
kevin tarbet: well u shouldnt push urself like that sweety
Trinian Buttercrunch: no, i shouldn't, but unfortunately, i do. because sleeping doesn't work. got it checked out by the doctor, apparently i have a thyroid problem. it's fixable, but until the pills kick in four to six weeks from now, i'm stuck with the insomnia
kevin tarbet: well u should still try to get some sleep sweety
kevin tarbet: ur pushing urself alot
Trinian Buttercrunch: yeah, i will after the chapter.
Trinian Buttercrunch: I know. It's just kind of.... hard not to.
Trinian Buttercrunch: I like pushing myself, as odd as that sounds.
kevin tarbet: hehe
kevin tarbet: well if i was there and u didnt have a bf or had me i would set the book down and help u sleep at night by cuddling with u at night
Trinian Buttercrunch: ^.^ yeah, that's probably help
Trinian Buttercrunch: though I'd probably get up anyway and grab a book and you'd have to pull it away
kevin tarbet: oh i have already thought of that too
Trinian Buttercrunch: =P
kevin tarbet: i would bondage u to the bed =^-~=
Trinian Buttercrunch: damn
Trinian Buttercrunch: \I'd work Houdini.
kevin tarbet: hehe not with me doing the bondaging
kevin tarbet: ill make sure ur tied down and comfy
Trinian Buttercrunch: damn again. *must comes up with nifty way out*\
kevin tarbet: hehe u can try but it wont work if i was there with u
kevin tarbet: and besides
kevin tarbet: if we ended up doing bondage to each other
Trinian Buttercrunch: hahahaha
kevin tarbet: i think we would stay up anyways
Trinian Buttercrunch: yup. darn, you saw through my plan
kevin tarbet: hehe well then
kevin tarbet: lets get started then
kevin tarbet: but sadly ur with a bf
kevin tarbet: =T-T=
Trinian Buttercrunch: yes, i am.
Trinian Buttercrunch: though i suck anyways at relationships so you might want to be thankful
kevin tarbet: so what does that mean?
Trinian Buttercrunch: mmm, that i avoid a lot of time spent together in relationships, that i shy away from romantic sap, etc. etc.
Trinian Buttercrunch: i'm very independent
kevin tarbet: hehe well then be urself then
kevin tarbet: dont try to act like someone else
kevin tarbet: it never works
kevin tarbet: if i met a girl
Trinian Buttercrunch: i know, but that would require little time spent together and most people hate that
kevin tarbet: well true
kevin tarbet: but then their r ppl that will love u
kevin tarbet: if i met a girl
kevin tarbet: i would go right out and say if we were close
kevin tarbet: that i like bondage
Trinian Buttercrunch: yes, but that's not as bad as saying you're an awkward, non-sap person
Trinian Buttercrunch: and i'm saying i'm one of those
Trinian Buttercrunch: not you
kevin tarbet: awww
kevin tarbet: well one thing i know ppl would think would be a turn down
kevin tarbet: if i said this to them
kevin tarbet: well tell me this
kevin tarbet: have u met a guy that wouldnt mind toys?
Trinian Buttercrunch: mmmmm, haven't gotten that deep into a relationship to find out
kevin tarbet: well what happens if u find one? then what would u think?
Trinian Buttercrunch: most girls would love that
Trinian Buttercrunch: I really would probably like it, but I'd have to have that connection with the person before going that far.
kevin tarbet: oh i see
kevin tarbet: well then guess
kevin tarbet: what
kevin tarbet: im one of those guys
Trinian Buttercrunch: not bad, kevin.
Trinian Buttercrunch: girls kind of like that. as long as they're in love with the person or at least have a strong connection, they usually go for it
kevin tarbet: so u think if we got into a good connection we can get that close?
kevin tarbet: would u really like it?
Trinian Buttercrunch: if we got that close, but kevin, first of all, yes, there's the boyfriend. second of all, i'm attending Art Institute of Dallas next semester.
Trinian Buttercrunch: Where I'll have to throw myself into filming.
kevin tarbet: awww
kevin tarbet: well we can try
kevin tarbet: if u want to
kevin tarbet: unless u want to try with the guy ur with right now
Trinian Buttercrunch: mmmm, the guy i'm with right now, I don't want to keep in dallas
Trinian Buttercrunch: i'm not good with distant relationships
kevin tarbet: well what about me? would u want to try it then?
kevin tarbet: i mean i can find a college up there near urs
kevin tarbet: and we can be together
Trinian Buttercrunch: i'd try a few dates with you, kevin. but honestly, you'd have to drive all the way to dallas. and i don't want you to get a college up there just for me
kevin tarbet: aww but i would want to try sweety
Trinian Buttercrunch: because my college, because it's a VOTEC would work me like I was in the career. And filming has little time for social life. So even if you did move up there, I'd have little to no time to go out.
Trinian Buttercrunch: you might find somebody else. I'm not the only woman in the world.
kevin tarbet: but that still doesnt mean i can come see u at night and cuddle with u in bed
kevin tarbet: well i can at least try cant i?
kevin tarbet: i made a mistake not asking u out sooner in high school and im really sorry for that
kevin tarbet: i thought it was going to be different and i was going to see u more but i didnt relize how much i missed u until i losed u
Trinian Buttercrunch: k, we'll go out to a movie before i leave next semester, k? see how it goes- if it goes well and i'm willing, we';ll keep it u[
Trinian Buttercrunch: *up
Trinian Buttercrunch: I just have a question. What, beyond bondage and toys are you interested in me for?
Trinian Buttercrunch: Why are you interested in me?
kevin tarbet: because i felt at ease when i saw u. all the grieve and worries would go away when i saw u and talked to u
kevin tarbet: u made things easier on me when i felt u and laughed with u
Trinian Buttercrunch: But what if every nice girl can do that for you?
kevin tarbet: we even have common things together
kevin tarbet: but thats the thing
kevin tarbet: their isnt one
Trinian Buttercrunch: I mean, when I was upset that day in the hall and was crying about my mom, you kind of just stood there.
kevin tarbet: mmmm im sorry
kevin tarbet: i was speechless at the time
kevin tarbet: i wanted to help u but i felt weak at the time
Trinian Buttercrunch: Why? You aren't weak.
kevin tarbet: i was
kevin tarbet: not the body
kevin tarbet: but my spirit was weak
kevin tarbet: i was to frail inside
Trinian Buttercrunch: saying sorry and hugging someone doesn't require a strong spirit
kevin tarbet: but thats what causes the action to what ur doing
Trinian Buttercrunch: and you feel all this about me, but you don't even know about my passion for film or my connection with leah or what i want to do and where i want to travel
kevin tarbet: well then let me know
kevin tarbet: i want to know
Trinian Buttercrunch: so how am i giving you comfort by being?
kevin tarbet: well arnt we talking right now?
Trinian Buttercrunch: yes, but i'm not understanding. you and i love music. and you and i love anime. but what is it about me that makes you feel comforted or happy or all that? if i made you feel that way, why weren't you like that in the hall or at prom?
kevin tarbet: mmm i dont know... everything was crashing down on me at the time...
kevin tarbet: i didnt know what to think
kevin tarbet: i wanted to kiss u
kevin tarbet: i wanted to take u out and just be with u
Trinian Buttercrunch: so you should have. we could have gone to a restuarant or something.
Trinian Buttercrunch: you should have said so. you mentioned it, but we didn't do it
kevin tarbet: mmm
kevin tarbet: well i know i made alot of mistakes while i was in high school
kevin tarbet: and im sorry for them
Trinian Buttercrunch: what mistakes? other than SHOWING you liked me more? what mistakes did you make?
kevin tarbet: but i want make that up to u
kevin tarbet: all of that
kevin tarbet: during high school i was being all bottled up and didnt want to try to let anyone see it =T-T=
kevin tarbet: i was stupid
kevin tarbet: i should of been more opened to u and showed how badly i cared for u
Trinian Buttercrunch: okay, then tell me what you like doing. hobbies. interests. careers.
Trinian Buttercrunch: and how could you care for me that much? we went to prom and shared music together? we didn't even really date and you cared for me that much? even without knowing me?
kevin tarbet: well my hobbies r collecting cards and action figures
kevin tarbet: my interest r to get more friends and be good to everyone that i know and always help when they r u in trouble
Trinian Buttercrunch: nooo, i mean inerests as in reading, writing, art, etc. etc
kevin tarbet: oh i like to read mangas fantasy's
kevin tarbet: i love to listen to music
kevin tarbet: i dont really hate any kind
kevin tarbet: i love most of them
kevin tarbet: i watch anime and other kind of series
Trinian Buttercrunch: any music you don't care for? like rap or something
kevin tarbet: well their r some that i dont like but i still listen to them
kevin tarbet: i dont really hate any kind
Trinian Buttercrunch: okay. careers
kevin tarbet: mmm lets see
kevin tarbet: im going for my basics
kevin tarbet: right now
Trinian Buttercrunch: do you have a deckared major though?
Trinian Buttercrunch: *declared
kevin tarbet: and then afterwards i want to be a chef
Trinian Buttercrunch: where do you want to go to school for that? any particular colleges
kevin tarbet: mmm not sure yet
kevin tarbet: most likely around austin
Trinian Buttercrunch: cool
kevin tarbet: yup
Trinian Buttercrunch: okay, look, i just need to know what you're seeing in me other than that feeling of comfort? how am i giving you that when you don't even know me that well (not saying you don't want to)
kevin tarbet: well im hoping to chang that when i talk to u over the phone and seeing u
Trinian Buttercrunch: yes, but how do i make you comfortable if you don't know me? all nice girls can do that to people.
kevin tarbet: but i also feel like i can come to u when i need to talk to someone and tell them about something bad
kevin tarbet: but i known u threw most of high school
kevin tarbet: but i have been with u alot and i want to be with u more
Trinian Buttercrunch: we'll set up a date soon, k? i'll see how i feel after it. but there's rules to it, k? no kissing. we have to know each other first. get used to each other.
kevin tarbet: kk
kevin tarbet: how about holding hands?
Trinian Buttercrunch: mmmm, iffy. maybe after the movie. just keep in mind the maybe
kevin tarbet: oh yay
kevin tarbet: i will sweety
kevin tarbet: how about next week?
Trinian Buttercrunch: i'm not free for the next two weeks. next week three tests in one week. the next week another test and i'm headed uo to arkansas to see "rent" with leah in production
kevin tarbet: ok then the week after that then?
Trinian Buttercrunch: probably. okay. we'll work it out.
kevin tarbet: hehe i cant wait sweety
Trinian Buttercrunch: =) i'm going to bed now. night kevin.
kevin tarbet: but we can talk before then?
Trinian Buttercrunch: yes
kevin tarbet: ok then sweety
Trinian Buttercrunch: oyasumi et les elephants
kevin tarbet: goodnight sweety

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Elephants and cows and blind acrobatic film makers.

The Reclusive Lifestyle Isn't a Bad Thing- We All Know This

I think I'm becoming a Mark. Or showing my true MARK colors.

I don't think regular college students are supposed to not do anything about seeing their old high school friends. I was sad at the beginning of college that they were gone, but now, all of a sudden, I realize I'm not picking up their calls all the time, I'm not calling them back, I'm not making plans with them. And I'm not entirely too rattled by that.

Leigha calls, Amanda doesn't (don't mind, we MySpace, whatever), Melissa calls, Karen buzzes, Kevin calls/jumps, Jared calls/buzzes. What do I do, ignore them until one day I think I should call them or say hello. And then I do. But what kind of friend am I to not pick up their phones and not stay in touch and not mind? I loved them, I DO love them, but apparently I don't seem to like showing that or being around that idea very much.

And I'm becoming a freaking recluse. The only person I ever want to talk to anymore is Leah and my parents. I don't even pick up Andy's calls all the time. And a girlfriend/date should always love when they're called, not be deciding to ignore it.

There is no problem to me with only enjoying talking to Leah anymore. I could never find anything wrong in that. But her and my FAMILY being the only ones I ever give a ring?! Carlee counts once and awhile for me when I miss her and want to chat and want to see how she's doing, but STILL- THREE PEOPLE!!!! I should not live my life upon three people. Right? Please say no. That it's okay I enjoy being alone, working group projects, and simply thinking about the people afterwards, not permenantly marking them a soul in my black book. Because that seriously sounds like a bad thing to me right now.

Maybe that's another reason I'm clutching to film so hard right now. I work on my stuff with people, then work on it on my own, we print, we remember, and I move on. It's a career that doesn't require going on a fancy date and then making out with that long-time-boyfriend-fancy-date man until the cows come home. If I was required to do that, my cows would probably come home before the sun even went down.

Hello again, bloggers. I'm out and back for the count with my lovely rants. Thanks for reading and I <3 you all.

Elephants and cows and blind acrobatic film makers.